~Love me Hate me~

Random.

2012-01-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Study week....

Now I'm already in the exam week with absolutely no exam mood.

What's happening to me nowadays? It really do seem like I had lost myself and will to study. I do not know what more should I do. Okay, since today I just finished my first exam, it really doesn't matter much to me. Being sad about not knowing how to do is just too stupid of me. What more can I do? What's done is done. No use crying over a spilt milk unless you work hard to milk another cow. Just a minor rambling today my dear bloggie...sometimes it really does seem like I have alot of friends and yet I didn't. Perhaps for them after reading this post, they might have this feeling, "ah, this guys is all emo again, guess I should approach him and say, Hey! everything is fine, don't worry, we don't think of you like that." Well, I thank you for still having time to look at this post, somehow at least you still thought of me.... And yet again today, I felt sarcasm everywhere...I don't know~ maybe it's their way of expressing themselves but somehow, that little cynical smile is what hurts me. Yeah I know you are brilliant, you are smart, you are popular....but is there a need to act so? No wonder you got what you deserve, in my opinion. It's funny how human interact with each other, the more educated they are, the more complicated it is to understand them and to read their mind.

I have got to be thankful to the little bunch of friends that I still have, who are willing to sit down and listen to my narrow-hearted complains, but that's all I could do. Otherwise I would have gone crazy.
I'm also thankful for her being with me all the time. Oh yeah, let me tell you something. There is this thing which i really hate the most when it comes to being in a relationship. I really do hate people going around you, forgetting about you when going for outing with one petty reason/excuse; Aiya, you got gf d ma....no need us acc u wan la rite? we oso dowan kacau u both sweet sweet ma.... Eh, hello? Who are you to me? You are my friends right? To me everyone is of equivalent importance to me. Therefore I really hate people who label me as a person who forgets their friend for his own girlfriend. Maybe you don't mean it, I don't know.....

Enough complaining I guess? Back to mugging. Till then my bloggie~

Confessions of Disappointment :'(

2011-02-24T06:05:00.002+08:00

Its been really long since i ever remember i visited here.

So why now? I guess its just the built up tension from everywhere.

So I take this post is for me to release my tension?

Or is it just another confession I'm not able to make verbally?

Frankly speaking,

I find it very hard to breathe whenever I'm with them,

Its just so complicated, I just don't know where I should start.

Well, I remembered in a not so distant past, when we're all so innocent and laugh and talk and do things together, whenever, wherever and whatever we want....

Now,

Things seems very complicated,

I sometimes do feel ostracized if you guys even ever notice at all,

Its always you guys who are feeling happy, laughing off nonsensical jokes,

Ask me if I even tried to join in with you guys?

I do, I seriously do!

What i get in return is just another hard to breathe situation,

the longer we converse, the harder it is for me to continue in the conversation.

So, in order for you guys to be happy as you all are, I back off.

Did you all ever notice at all? I doubt so.

You guys,

maybe you all might think i have changed,

but do you know, what you all might thought about me,

Is exactly the mirror image of my feelings now, perhaps worse.

Who should i turn to now? Well i'm not the only one as I know.

This friend of mine has already long had this feeling ever since i couldn't even remember.

Today,

Just one question from the Dr. you guys hate the most,

Slapped you guys hard on the face rite?

Or maybe not since you guys don't feel that you're in the wrong at all!

Sometimes, what you think is ok to you, doesn't mean it's ok to others,

As the saying goes, one man's meat is another man's poison.

You might not realised with your comment you've hurt my feelings.

Yes I'm busy with assignments, I'm tired,

So is it so wrong for me to express myself?

Don't compare me with you guys,

I don't mention, doesn't mean that I need to or is it a necessity for me to tell you I'm very busy and stuffs,

Things that I'm busy with, you know nothing and you just go around spitting whatever that comes to your mind.

Yes! I'm pissed! And angry indeed cause after all this you can just simply brush it off as if it doesn't even matter to me. If you guys are stranger to me, I would have already exclaimed "FUCK YOU!"

I told my friend that he should just take it easy and just let it be.

Seems like I'm the one that couldn't make it huh?

Everyday is a learning process,

Well, I learn how to manage my emotions day come day,

After a good night's sleep, I can still laugh and smile at you,

But the wound inside will not heal.

For you have hurt me deeply.

Perhaps its the expectation I have in you guys,

making me feel what i'm feeling now.

Let's just stop right here ok?

I wouldn't want to go any further now.

Till then.

THOMAS~

2010-08-23T02:32:00.002+08:00

She cried~

and he could do nothing~

hearing her sobbing,

my heart turns sour,

he couldn't help but feel sad himself...

he just couldn't comfort her.

She cried,

All because of him,

always thinking of himself,

ignoring the position and situation,

she's been going thru~

He could do nothing,

he just couldn't....

but feel sad for her....

Sometimes he thinks of himself

as a failure

for not noticing such small details,

where others could,

All because of his carelessness,

She cried~

8/2/2010

2010-08-02T14:06:00.002+08:00

Had a very tiring nite yday~

never before i rush my lab report like siao~

after back from sunway, go to kkm, then go foyer tot yizi they all wana practice dance, then back to room~

haha^^ go kkm find tze siong very hard lo....din bring my phone cos no battery d. so when reach KKm, i was literally like knocking every door, asking where tze siong is, cos he's my saviour for lending me his report to refer to, since he's my lab partner.

So went back to my room and took a bathe before starting to rush my "reference" of the lab report^^

Took medicine for my sore throat before starting(thx ^.~)

Did the report till 2am before planning to take a short nap(planned 1hr nap) as your's truly is coughing non-stop plus the drooping eyes. din sleep on the bed cos afraid might oversleep so end up sleep at the living room~ never expected that once i open back my eyes, my handphone screen showed me 6am=.=

Was freaking out since he missed the alarm as well=.= quick quick went to the toilet to wash his face then continue to rush his report~ thank god i made it arr~ tonite wan sleep kao kao d^^

Mood- COaster...

2010-07-30T03:28:00.002+08:00

Had quite a roller coaster today,

The mood that is,

From a plain morning,

To a refreshing afternoon,

To an angry evening,

Full of pek-chek-ness,

To a blissful night.

The moment it skipped,

Not only once but twice,

Its so unimaginable~

Was it really an imagination,

Or was it a hint....

I don't know what to do~

Should I continue being like this~

Or should I move on?

jumpy,

thomas

2010-07-29T10:41:00.001+08:00

Your smile made my day~

~.^

Tears~

2010-07-13T21:53:00.002+08:00

It skipped,

It did again,

The dreaded feeling of my shrinking heart,

Familiar feeling that I can't forget,

I hate it~

Every time she surfaces in the midst of my thoughts,

Every time I wanted to suppress that feeling,

It hurts so much,

Being ignorant of her presence~

Will it be okay,

after a good night's sleep?

Will it be okay,

after I wake up from the dream?

Of me being in love,

With who I am not supposed to be...

Tears welling up with blood rushing all about,

Dilemma felt was never this great,

Trying hard to keep the tears in,

With the heart keep on aching~

I doubt anyone would understand,

For no one would ever care,

How I would feel in this place,

Where any choice would hurt,

Hurt so much,

That I would be crying without tears~

A "Better" New Look.

2010-05-28T01:37:00.002+08:00

Fuh~ took me hours to tweak this page although the instructions are already there..seems I'm not that good in programming and stuffs eh? But with this new look I hope you peeps would enjoy this page more:)

yours truly,

thomas

New look

2010-05-26T23:57:00.004+08:00

A little bland though cos' the previous template that i used had some problem with it~

So a new look for a change:)

Stay tuned peeps^^

ciao~

~Reminisce

2010-05-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

Do you still remember the day,

When we used to gaze at the clear sky,

Seeing the clouds,

Changing with our wild imagination.

When we used to watch the night,

Counting billions and billions of stars,

When you used to lie on me,

Close to my heart,

Listening to my heartbeat,

As if it were yours.

Now that I think of it,

Everything seems so vague,

I can barely remember,

Perhaps some might think this is just a fake.

Now that you are gone,

I can hardly grasp,

The image of you turning,

Away from what you are not satisfied with.

I am lost,

My life,

My soul,

My everything,

Seems so distant.

And here I'm still waiting,

For the day you would turn,

For this time it will be back to me,

Come back to me.

Seems like it doesn't even matter,

A day, a month, a year, a decade,

I will be waiting,

Yes, I will be waiting,

For I know that one day will come,

The day,

When we could finally lay down,

On our back,

Once again, gazing the wide sky....

I miss you.

yours,

thomas

Brand new experience^^

2010-04-15T16:48:00.002+08:00

Today i experienced a whole new thing after almost a year in UNi. Today is the first time i ever cook myself rice with sardine as lunch^^. thx to waynee lor~ cos he supply me with the rice and sardine~ he so good leh, last time he give me maggi, this time give me rice. Very lucky to have a friend like him:) I might sound gay here but I'll treasure him as my friend:)

thx wayne wai~

~thomas~

2010-04-01T18:17:00.003+08:00

Had been at the library for almost 4 hours d~

yeah, its raining again.

Again i'm multitasking again,

Listening to music, reading organic chem, writing blog, facebook-ing, MouseHunt-ing, downloading shows and songs~

Crazy eh~ somehow i wonder how i can cope with these things...haha heaven sent maybe?

Yeah talking about heaven, there was this guys just now while i was having my lunch at the bakery,

came to me talking about wat fellowship in UKM. He asked whether i mind if he sits down. Of course being a good guy I am, i let him go ahead with what he was doing.

Then he started to intro about Christianity to me! I was like "Huh? Come on, not again?"

Yeah as you can see, I've been approached by countless Christians spreading God's love to me.

Well, I'm not trying to raise an issue here but since he's asking properly, I let him go ahead with what he wanted to preach.

Well, basically I could already figure out what he was trying to say next as i use to attend church services despite being a Buddhist^^

Then he was like asking me to become a Christian on the spot~! although with him saying "I'm not forcing you to accept Christ now, but how good will it be if you were to accept Christ", with a smiling face.

Again i want to stress i am not trying to raise an issue about Christianity yea...and i am not being racist~

Maybe this may not sound funny to the minority but i was debating with that guy. I was like asking him to prove the existence of Heaven, God, and stuffs like that, which of course the only answer i would expect will be the word "FAITH". I knew very well how he was coming about to persuade me to accept Christ. But I believe I was born a Buddhist for a reason, so I don't see the necessity of converting to a Christian.

I could say that somehow it ticks me off since I don't like being persuaded. Yeah, it annoys me. I would rather be a free thinker....which reminds me, he also asked me about my believe in God as the Almighty creator, thus denying the Law of Evolution stated by Charles Darwin. I said "I am a scientist, I believe in science as well as the existence of God." This question reminds me of "Angels & Demons" where the Vaticans fight against the Illuminati in the question of God vs Science.

this will be very long-winded if i were to continue any further. So i shall stop here. Till next time peeps~

2010-03-26T16:58:00.003+08:00

Its been long since it rains,

So cooling and yet so refreshing,

It washes your sorrow, your anger,

And whatever that makes you sad away.

Its so peaceful after it rains,

Listening to the birds,

Glancing at the scenic view,

From my dorm room.

Of course its lonely to be living alone,

Ah, what am i saying?

Of course it lonely,

Even so, the peaceful breeze of the after-rain,

Sooths my hectic soul~

Again i glance out of my window,

Seeing the wet tarmac,

Covered by droplets of crystal clear water,

So tiny, yet so pure.

Humans are like that,

Reminds me when i was small,

So tiny, yet so pure,

Laid back with my limbs all on the floor.

~~random ramblings~~

Thomas' 100 Rules of Life

2010-03-13T15:06:00.004+08:00

100 RULES OF LIFE BY THOMAS

1. Live life to the fullest and have no regrets.

2. Always aim to the top no matter where you go. "Aim for the stars, at least you get the coconut"

3. Sing with your heart. Emotion and feelings are important when you sing.

4. A hungry man is an angry man. Eat on time.

5. Never save on food. But don't overspend as well.

6. Treat others the way you want to be treated by them.

7. Never forget to smile:) The world smiles to you when you smile to them.

8. Love yourself.

9. Love your parents, siblings, relatives and your friends.

10. Never despise yourself. You are what you think you are.

11. Believe in God.

12. Be confident. You are the BEST!

13. Always give 100% for the things you are doing.

14. Don't do it if you feel like doing it half-heartedly.

15. Think before you speak.

16. Don't think you are alone. I am always by your side.

17. Never forget to appreciate what others have give you. Thank you is always a nice phrase.

18. Never be afraid to apologize if you have done wrong.

19. Dare to face your mistakes and take up the responsibilities for the consequences of your own actions.

20. Never run away from your responsibilities.

21. Think twice, maybe thrice, before making a decision.

22. A man speaks only once and never repeats himself for the second time.(courtesy, DAD)

23. Respond to the person who's talking to you. It is rude to ignore their existence.

24. Never despise others. Everyone has their own value of existence.

25. Never be to high of yourself for a certain achievement. There are many more people who's better than you are.

26. Never be afraid to speak your mind. You are the voice of the world and the society.

27. Treasure your friends. They help you alot when you need them.

28. Believe your parents. They are never wrong.

29. Be faithful to everyone. Believe in them. Refer to rule #6

30.

more to come^^

2010-03-13T15:02:00.002+08:00

After watching WGM, I am awed by the 100 Rules of Life by JoKwon's fans.

Therefore i also feel like making myself a set of 100 Rules of Life(Thomas' Version)

It will be in the next post. I will slowly add it up to 100 as i only have a few right now.

Kkap Kwon Ga-In "We Got Married" ADAM couple

2010-02-28T09:55:00.002+08:00

I'm so loving this WGM couple~ tak boleh tahan with their antiques la! I suggest you guys watch it at youtube through this user: 2odsubs2

Reli nice:)

2010-02-13T20:26:00.002+08:00

Gong Xi Gong Xi Gong Xi NI~~

Yay~ tmr Chinese New Year d lo.

Tmr going back Kedah, my dad's home town^^

Take Ang POw~ yeah^^V

but besides all this i haven't reli finish my lab report plus my revisions for midsem lor~

and now i'm wondering how shouldi go about it :P

2010-02-05T16:47:00.002+08:00

mid sem coming~ what should i do? are the preps enough? how come i feel like i still did not grasp the essence of "studying" yet?

saa~ ganbarimasho ka~

2010-01-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

I'm wondering whether I should accept the offer by Amy 姐 to join BSMM Induk. I feel its a rather tempting offer as I had always love to be on administrative positions. Furthermore, with the conflict I had with my detachment mates (here i mean the seniors), I felt it's hard for me to serve the detachment. But, if I were to accept the offer it means my days will be kinda busy d. Can I really cope with it? Cos' I don't want to jeopardise my studies like I did in the previous semester.

What can I do?

2010-01-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

Walao....UKM JAring Lag like hell....kenot online at all...now only got chance to online awhile~~ T.T

2010-01-03T23:49:00.001+08:00

New song learned at choir

Ave Verum Corpus by Wolfgang A. Mozart

2010-01-03T11:52:00.003+08:00

Nothing much in particular,

Just woke up after Dota-ing till 3am just now~

Crazy eh?

*Listening to Evan Yo- Ji Mo, Hao Le（寂寞，好了）, Brown Eyed Girls-Sign

2010-01-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

Had nothing to do,

Lazy to revise,

So, went to friends' blog to kaypo,

But realised that there's so much i didn't understand about them,

I respect them,

For not showing their very emotions to us,

Unlike me,

I can't seem to keep them in my deepest corner of my heart,

unless i want to, that is.

I also realise that behind their smiling faces,

they concealed their despair,

hiding them from others.

Maybe i'm not a very good 'keeper'(in this context, secrets)

But admit i'm a good listener.

Sometimes this is my weakness as well.

Aih...i felt helpless when i saw their notes~

Full of sadness...not being able to help as a friend~

Maybe i should try being more sensitive,(yeah one of my weakness as well, not sensitive enough/or should i say i'm ignorant?)

Or will my help means more trouble for them? (confused~)

2010-01-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

It's raining,

With my towel,

drenched with the water from my hair,

As i watched the pelting rain,

As i hear the thunderous roar of Thor's Hammer,

Reminds me of the just passed New Year,

Yet another semester passed,

And a new one coming.

It's raining,

As Thor's Hammer knocks,

So does my speaker rocks,

With my hair still wet,

For the water that was adsorbed,

Was absorbed with my towel.

*just minor ramblings to ease my boredom. happy new year everyone:)

Love|Hate- Hurt

2009-10-28T06:15:00.000+08:00

I love you

But I hate you at the sane time

Hate you fo how much I yearn for you

For how you did not even notice.

I love you,

BUt I hate the way you treat me.

All I want is but a smile,

And thats all you ever gave.

I want more,

But you reply me no more

I love you,

But you could never be mine,

For I can't love you

As the time is not right,

Cos' I'm afraid

So afraid that I'll be hurt again.

I love you yet I hate you,

when I see you,

my hearts shivers, my legs go weak; which I don't know WHY?

And it still is now.

How should I tell you, for I'm not even in your mind.

The other him,

I guess he's much better, smarter,and perhaps more charming?

I don't understand this feeling at all,

I hate it but I want it,

When I have it, it hurts me.

Hurts me so much that thousand words can't even explain a single thought.

And most of all,

I'm afraid that i might hurt you for loving you,

I felt like crying, but the tears won't drop,

My chest hurts like its gonna collapse, PLEASE STOP!

I don't want it anymore.

For how much I love you, it hurts me more.

My first FINAL Exam in UNI

2009-10-26T21:24:00.003+08:00

Finals arrived!

Well for today, I decided to update this blog since its been long since i clicked to this address:)

So. Todays event is as what u read at the title...ITS FINALS EXAMINATION!!!

Today's paper is STQM1913 Mathematical Techniques 1. Four questions and almost drained away life energy from everyone as its freaking hard....most of us don't know how to do. I still remember when i was answering the questions, the "sing MA" beside me was dazing like nobody's business:)

I dunno he knows how to answer the questions or not or he's just completely blank after reading the questions!

Luckily with the constant revising two weeks before the exam, i managed to answer the questions. HOw to say? At first i was completely blanked by the Q's coz i forgot which formula to use. The everything came to me after the fisrt 30 minutes:) Praise GOD!!

GUAN YIN MA!!

Right now gotta revise others.

UPCOMING!

Introduction to Microcomputers

Analytical Chemistry

DUE TOMORROW>>>

~Sorry for the late update~

2009-10-16T05:15:00.002+08:00

As per the title, i apologize for being so late to update this page of mine....nearly inactive for months d*laughs*

Anyways, regarding the Pesta tanglung thingy at my kolej was totally a blast!!~~

Everyone enjoyed and everyone had fun especially to my dearest committee members:) *hearts them*

Seriously speaking, without them the event wouldn't be successful. I would sincerely thank them for making Perayaan 1Malaysia & Pesta Tanglung a SUCCESS!!

Now that everything is finally over, i can finally settle down and start my revision for finals d....actually i had already started d.....just need to input more stuffs during the study week....oh pls let me get at least 3.5 and above le....

signing off

Giving up...

2009-09-09T17:58:00.002+08:00

reli felt like giving up on the Perayaan Kuih Bulan for KIY la...

those bastards kept on cari pasal wit us wan....cant they jus like leave us to settle our own event?

why must they be so particular about the hierarchy?

kenot chinese...mus be malay although u say its under JAKSA activity. BUT the whole JAKSA not MALAY MEH? so isnt it the same like robbing us of our event we painstakingly come up with?

after we finish almost everything those idiots jus came crashing in and slowly taking over our things....dont think we're stupid ok?

for those who sees this, let me tell you, i ain't afraid of you all. i am saying the truth. if you're unhappy with me come talk to me la! dont be a coward like using your authority to change eveything and asking someone else to deliver the message....come on la! BE A MAN! BOLA YOU MANA? Dare to do dun dare to own up to it! Im fed up of those idiots i tell you....

Effort in Uni wasted?

2009-09-09T17:51:00.002+08:00

I studied day and night to prepare for mid sem...yesterday samore purposely stayed up to study Teknik Maths till 3pm....

mana tau...

today mid sem, only 10 objective questions, 1 subjective question.

out of ten, im only confident for like 4 questions onli!! crap la like dat...

Study like gila still duno how to do?

If i noe will like dat, yday i sleep earlier la....no need eyes bengkak like goldfish go take exam....

sien lo like dat....tmr midsem for physical chem....duno will die anot....

better go read more now~~

A lil free?

2009-08-27T20:49:00.003+08:00

phew...assignments and reports which kept on piling finally cleared most of them d:) *happie*^^

classes keep on being canceled...duno wat happen to the lecturer la....so shiok take off wan.

anyways...with the assignments out of the frame, now can focus on doing revisions d...mid sem coming up in few more weeks...jus the week before go back for raya hols:) YAY!! can go home ad!!

KOREAN SONGS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD NOW!! Wonder Girls and So Nyeo Shi Dae!!

WA!!!XD

Will UKM close down due to H1N1 case?

2009-08-19T14:43:00.001+08:00

thats a question every UKM students been thinking this whole week...it sounds ridiculous when other 'U's already closed due to suspicion of H1N1, and UKM is still operating when there's already death cases in the campus and the management of UKM seems to be hiding it from the media....is it because they wana end the senior's Convocation first? if yes, then i hope they will close ASAP....why risk our lives? my senior course mate already got infected and she's currently under quarantine d....Think about others feelings please UKM....

2009-07-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

i lazy update heree lars...
check my facebook for the latest updates...
ciao...

My Queen

2009-07-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

currently watching this taiwanese drama....nice~
ethan ruan is good and hilarious in this show as his act as LU KA SI or Lucas is funny but very idealistic for a partner....u gotta watch it to understand wat i'm talkin about....haha:)
the female protagonist portrayed by Cheryl Yang looks kinda old...i dun like the undecisive-ness of hers coz very chuan le....when watching it.
overall its nice:) i havent finish yet...at EP15 nia....
ok~

3PM

2009-07-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

its raining~

pHEW~

2009-07-19T11:10:00.002+08:00

finally can let out a huge SIIGGGHHH~~~ d.... done with my second time application for ptptn loan...gosh...panic lo coz cant get into ptptn website...now ok d la....woke up d straight away jump to my lappy....now go wash up le...bye~

18.7.09

2009-07-18T14:03:00.002+08:00

jus finish washing my clothes...banyak lo....twist the clothes till hand oso pain...
coz jus now after came back from ko-k got nothing to do d...so take all dirty clothes to wash.
then after sidai baju, felt that my room abit dusty, so ma sweep lo.
after sweep feel got abit sticky, mop lo:)
now the room very clean:) onli now my table messy and dusty nia...later onli wipe la....
now hungry d, wana go eat but no one accompany:(
haihz...sendiri makan sendiri le....tmr might go out to buy some food...biscuits i mean....
tmr need to wash another batch of clothes....jeans din wash at all! now lazy ad....
the others so syok....wana go home go home d...i pula stay here at ukm...not to say i kenot but very mou liu leh when got nothing to do....next week planning to go midvalley find nat and chuck...duno they free anotz....
k la...i go eat liao la...update when free le...

timetable...

2009-07-16T16:01:00.002+08:00

roughly it will be like that for now coz mom requested for it....

Monday
Kemahiran membuat keputusan(KMK)- 2-3pm

Tuesday
Kimia Fizik 1.........................9-10am
Kimia Analisis ......................11-12pm
Teknik Matematik 1............1-2pm
Hubungan Etnik...................5-8pm

Wednesday
Kimia Fizik 1........................10-11am
Teknik Matematik..............1-3pm
KMK......................................3-5pm

Thursday
Kimia Analisis......................12-1pm
Microcomputer....................5-7pm

Friday
Kimia Fizik 1.........................8-9am
Microcomputer....................3-4pm

Saturday
Catur.....................................8-11am

thats about it....

Sunday 12-July-2009

2009-07-12T11:53:00.002+08:00

just woke up not long ago...slept like a pig..wake d sleep back wake again sleep back:) thats how i waste half of my day d:)
later onli go eat la...malas walk downthen up again...so boring...
felt like going kajang or kl sentral but same word: lazy=.=

web also got nothing much to see leh....watched most of the anime d....well.....i duno wat to say liao...next time

UPDATE!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-09T15:28:00.003+08:00

haha...well after 1st of july i havent updated coz seriously got no time...and furthermore i only gotta update now is coz that time my place dun hav any wifi service yet...speaking of that the wifi here are kinda stable lo....better than streamyx seriously:)

fell sick yesterday....and end up with 6 packets of medicines...dun believe?

believe me now? haha....

second week nia sick d....cham:(

anyways....getting better d lo....jus that among lectures the distance to travel some is kinda far.... and to wait for the bus will be like so slow...might as well jus walk there....damm tiring oso....nvm la...slowly build up stamina lo....

i jus realise about jus now that i breathe less using my mouth d...!! finally i can breathe right!!! i breathe thru my nose!! duno its because of the high altitude of my college or what, somehow it altered my "mau ping" for how many years d....ahhahaha....k la gtg liao...got lecture later...ciao

01.07.09

2009-07-09T15:27:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

so, yet again im updating. although i'm sleepy, im glad to hear from mom...dad...
and yeah, i talked to jie as well. well jie made my day:) now all my focus is to complete my uni life and pass with a first class honours for Chem. Tech.
as per what Assoc. Prof Dr. Azizan said...have an aim...and strive towards it...

I still have plenty to say, but my eyes are giving up on me...so i gtg now...later.

30 June 2009

2009-07-09T15:25:00.000+08:00

10.00am

Just finish on registering for the courses of our respective faculties. My pusat pengajian which is PUSAT PENGAJIAN SAINS KIMIA & TEKNOLOGI MAKANAN, PPSKTM for short...was the earliest to arrive at the computer lab which is used for the course registration. So here I am right now. *happy*
Well, this morning I overslept!! I thought it was just another 5 minutes nap, but it end up being an hour!! *gosh*
I guess its the fatigue which cause this to happen as all of us at KIY slept kinda late and wake up freaking early, plus the heavy load of walking and 'taklimat's really put a strain on us....so its kinda reasonable for me to oversleep coz im not the only one:) wakaakakaka....my neighbour also woke up late!
So i think thats for now...later.

29.6.09

2009-07-09T15:24:00.000+08:00

1.45am.
Hectic and tiring..damm i never expect the orientation to be this long...though its enjoyable but seriously im worn out to the point where i can just type here..
dad left yesterday after buying the essentials for me n bk..gosh..i had to walk all the way from kolej aminuddin baki to my own kolej which is kolej ibrahim yaakub...sucks man....dah lah the stuff damm heavy, the force on my shoulder nearly tear my shoulder apart(exaggerating)after that gotta clean up and unpack all my stuff, which is still not done with the unpacking yet coz its way too much, and those PCs(Pemudacara) were rushing us for the taklimat thingy...chuannded...and so in the end we end up finishing and back at our own room by one...which din take me long to write this...just around five minutes about now...yeah...Kolej Ibrahim Yaakub, KIY in short offers all male undergrads their very own room and ITS MY ROOM!! JUST FOR ME!! NO SHARING!! HELL YEAH!!ok...so thats about it peeps...next time:)

28.6.09 UKM Registration

2009-06-28T05:44:00.002+08:00

well...i just woke up....its like around 5.45am now...bk still sleeping, dad bathing:) while im blogging..
didnt sleep well though..maybe im not used to the bed kua..
guess today and this whole week will tire me out and get me some good sleep.
actually i'm looking forward to going uni:) so nothing in particular will say that i will miss home or sorts, but when time comes maybe it might happen:)
luckily the hotel(yes hotel and not hostel) we stayed a night at has wifi, man im gonna be net deprived if not for the wifi man....XD

well....my dad is out from the bath now...bk still havent got up:)
i'll go prepare myself d la...adios for now...

busy busy busy:)

2009-06-26T12:26:00.002+08:00

now its like super busy and lotsa things to prepare and i still have time to update:) well wat to do...i'm bored and stressed out d la...yeah..tomorrow will be it:)
I'm leaving PENANG!! *happiness*
AND HELLLOOOO BANGI!! *further happiness*
lols:) im over exaggerating things d:)
guess i got infected by viv's "quote ur emotion" oredi:)
but seems kinda fun:) *laughing like siao kia*
ok liao...gtg busy again...later:) *winks*

UNI POSTING aka MAH-LEH-SIEN governent's lame plan for undergraduates...

2009-06-19T00:50:00.003+08:00

Time is ticking away,
With time running less,
But still plenty o'stuffs to settle,
Plenty o'stuffs to decide,
Plenty o'stuffs to purchase.

Should have at the very least,
Given us more time to prepare,
Now that we are absolutely clueless,
Like rusa masuk kampung=.=

Not knowing what to do,
Can't even plan ahead of time,
Not even a single notice,
But left all os us guessing...

Now we're all nervous,
For we do not know what to do,
Waiting blankly,
For the unseeming result...

But I guess,
All we could do is to prepare,
Whatever we could,
For I don't think we will make it,
If the rumors were true.

That 27th June will be the day,
That all undergraduates will depart from their homes,
To an all new place,
Where they can start anew.

If we were given more time,
Reunions will be possible,
Preparations will be better,
So that we could all brace ourselves for the challenges ahead.

Who should we blame?
There's no one to blame,
For THEY won't admit,
That THEY were to blame.

At least they should think,
For we are the students,
We don't go to uni for nothing,
Some will take uni for fun,
But for others,
Its their final chance to right the wrongs they made.

So think about it my dear MAH-LEH-SIEN government,
We also need our time...
"You wat oso din let us noe"
"How we go to menara gading?"
"U expect kita orang semua pernah pergi UNI ka?"
"Tolong-lah...at least bagi tahu la apa kita orang kena buat"
"U all buat ikut u all senang jer, biar kami semua yang nak belajar MAMPUS pi"
Dear MAH-LEH-SIEN government....think about it.

Blind

2009-06-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

If one day i could see,
I want to see you,
Embrace you forever,
Like i never ever did.

Sadly im still blind,
But if i could see,
I want to see the world,
for the world i live in,
Is always dark...

Never ever know what is white,
cos' what im looking at now,
im not even sure,
whether its black.

When you said the sky is blue,
I wonder what blue is....
for i can't, i can't, i couldn't,
and i never will,
be able to see....
because im blind.

If i could see,
It will make my world much brighter,
for I am scared,
living in darkness for all I could recall.

If i could see,
your face will be the first i see,
for you were always beside me,
whenever i need....you.

*okay guys, this poem is dedicated for the blind, well it might seem like im translating from a song, yeah my idea was from the blind Chinese singer, Siow Huang Chi...i reli do admire him...his songs touched hearts...mine included:) well thats all for now...wait for the next kay? thx for ur support*

Happie:)

2009-06-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

today is the most happpiest day of my life as well as my most broke day coz i jus bought a brand new Dell Studio 1435 which cost me around 2.6k...
damm i was so excited!! and now wala!! im blogging with it now:) hehehex!!! so like that first la for now....the poems gotta wait la yea:)

Thoughts To Word...

2009-05-26T00:35:00.004+08:00

Growing up...
As days pass,
Present becomes past,
Memories last,
As long as we keep it...
deep inside our hearts.

Growing up,
We encounter lots of changes,
In which we grew,
From the experience we gain,
From the pain we complain,
For the current "US" is not the same,
As we are when we are still 'lame'?(i mean as in still little and duno anything...)

Still remember?
When we used to say;
"Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I have a friend,
that friend is you"...
I wonder if this little poem,
Will make friendship last.

Ever wonder how roses have thorns,
and "gals u love" are like roses?
We tend to our partners,
But we also tend,
To 'prick' our friends with those thorns....

To care is to share,
When caring is sharing,
even the slightest things,
the smallest things,
a friend will exclaim to the world,
signifying their happiness on behalf,
Of their FRIENDS....

But,
when caring is not sharing,
even the most humongous,
the largest,
the most "keng tin tong tei" stuff,
one would get so pissed,
to even have FUCKED his "friend"
of sharing the news....

Everyone is human,
Everyone is not robot,
Sounds redundant,
But it still conveys,
That we ain't PERFECT.

For how we used to be,
For how i wish it continue to be,
For how i yearn,
That we will all stay the same...
Changes do change,
The way we think, act, and speak
But eventually,
I pray,
The "Joss-Sticks" will remain.

signing out..

Rider Chips feat Arata Kagami-Lord of the Speed

2009-05-22T02:27:00.002+08:00

Unmei no gate toikakete iru
Left or right? kimi wa doko wo mezasu
Kono sora no shita de saikyou na no wa
That's my pride jibun no mi
Itsudatte massugu ni hashire lord of the speed

Chikyuu to iu na kono hoshi ni kiseki ga okoru
Zetsubou... (who's got the real?) soreijou (they've never seen)
Kiki no sukuu sonzai
Daremo tomerarenai jikan wo nukisatte yuku
Saisoku no... (you've got the speed) soreijou (they've never seen)
Tsuyosa ayatsuru mono

Ame no hitotsubu (just change your form)
Ai suru hito e (got to cast off)
Otosanai to chikau nara kumo no kanata e toberu darou

Unmei no gate ima hirakareta
Dead or alive kimi wa tadori tsukeru
Saki wo yuku mono to sore wo ou mono
That's my pride tada hitori
Michi naki michi dake wo hashire lord of the speed

Nijuuyon jikan to iu ichinichi sugoshiteite mo
Dare de mo (who's got the real?) kitsuka nai (they've never seen)
Ichibyou ga aru darou
Kehai wo kanjite furikaeru sonna shunkan
Saisoku no (you've got the speed) kaze no naka (they've never seen)
Kiseki ga okotteru

Fuan na yoru wo (just change your form)
Ai suru hito e (got to cast off)
Misenai koto chikau nara donna asa demo tsuretekuru

Unmei no gate toikakete iru
Left or right? kimi wa doko wo mezasu
Kono sora no shita de saikyou na no wa
That's my pride jibun no mi
Itsudatte massugu ni hashire lord of the speed

Unmei no gate toikakete iru
Left or right? kimi wa doko wo mezasu
Kono sora no shita de saikyou na no wa
That's my pride jibun no mi
Itsudatte massugu ni hashire lord of the speed

Rider Chips feat Ricky-ELEMENTS

2009-05-22T02:23:00.003+08:00

Sing Along...

Kokoro ni tsurugi kagayaku yuuki
Tashika ni toji komete
Kiseki kirifuda wa jibun da ke

Kaze ga oshiete iru
Tsuyosa wa jibun no nakani
Osore sae jori kona seru nara
Shinka shiteku

Kaze o kitte hashiru
Tomadou imo mayou imo tsute
Doko mademo tookuheyu keruto
Shinjite mitai
Dilemma ni sakebu kore wa
Fuka no o kowa shiteku

Kokoro ni tsurugi kagayaku yuuki
Tashika ni toji komete
Mienai chikara michibiku yo BLADE
Nemuri mezameru toki
Mirai kanashimiga owaru basho

Ame ga mado o tataku
Kanashimi ga ikari ni naru
Jibun ni genkai ga aru koto
Shira saseteru
Hi ga tsuita kokoro wa karada ni mo tsutawatteku
Moe agaru negai ni kawatte
Hashiri dashiteru

Tobi dashite iku segai ga mada
Yume o miteru uchi ni hayaku

Kokoro ni tsurugi kagayaku yuuki
Tashika ni toji komete
Kokoro to karada sunaga reba BLADE
Kagesae kiri saite
Kiseki kirifuda wa jibun da ke

Kokoro ni tsurugi kagayaku yuuki
Tashika ni toji komete
Mienai chikara michibiku yo BLADE
Nemuri mezameru toki Mirai kanashimiga owaru basho
Kiseki kirifuda wa jibun da ke

How I wish...

2009-05-14T11:12:00.002+08:00

How I wish,
If i could return in time,
If i could right the wrong,
If i could avoid the unavoidable,
If only i could...

How I wish,
That everything were like a CD-RW disc,
That everything could be re-written again,
And again and again and again....

If only that time I'm a little smarter,
A little more careful,
A little more caring,
A little more daring?
If only that and as if that would happen?

If only time machine is available now,
But,
What will i do with it?
Will I go back?
Will I right the wrong?
I doubt so...
How I wish it never happen.....

Kabuto

2009-05-09T03:50:00.003+08:00

what does it feel like to be on top of the world?

i have yet been able to experience it...

But it sounds nice eh?

haha....i'm monologing again...swt case=.=

lols...instead of watching Kamen Rider Decade, i went back in time to watch Kamen Rider Kabuto as most of the youtube members kept on babbling about how great Kabuto is until me myself also got addicted to it:)

Its so freaking nice le!

Well that includes my favourite part of the show where Kamishiro Tsurugi calls Kagami Arata "Waga Tomo, KaGAAMi"(meaning my friend Kagami), he seriously need to stress on the "Ga" and its so freaking funny!

Yep! and here's a pix of the Kamen Rider Kabuto i was talking about...

HYPER KABUTO

KABUTO-NORMAL FORM

Jaa!!

Threads of Destiny

2009-04-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

Haha...today went to PM to watch the screening of 'Threads of Destiny' aka 'Akai~Ito' in japanese. As you see, its a japanese love story(not sure how true is it coz i did not see any influential romantic scenes:P). I realize one thing that is, in the cinema rite, there was only three person watching this show=.= But i swear its one nice movie to watch:)

Manga Review- Suzuka

2009-04-20T19:56:00.002+08:00

Yeah... i finished reading one of my favourite mangas again(yeah again coz its the second time i'm reading it)

it was a nice manga though it has some obscene scenes, i love the plot and the titular character of course, which is Suzuka.... interested? well you can read it via here.

So basically(spoiler alert) it is about this guy named Akitsuki Yamato who went to Tokyo for high school, and he fell in love with a promising high-jumper, Asahina Suzuka. They went through high and low of life, getting together, breaking up, getting together again and broke up....quite pek chek oso la this part... but this story mostly involves BG relationship, on how they slowly develop their feelings and to how they cope with the 'halangan' which arises.(sorry ya, i don't know which word suitably fit 'halangan', so might as well leave it as it is^^)

So guys, one manga review from me and i would rate this manga out of scale of five stars, mine would be 4.5^^

Adios for now....if you find this manga interesting drop a few comments here yea:)

Reflection?

2009-04-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

I hate being alone....

yet i don't talk when i'm not alone...

what is going on with me?

When i feel like speaking,

Is there anyone whose willing to hear?

Or am i just another pathetic being?

I tried to find myself...

Again....

But to no avail.

Sense of nothingness kept on swelling from within,

Just don't feel I should be weeping,

Instead i should keep on trying,

To prevent the past from repeating...

Then again I thought,

Life shouldn't be this bored,

I'll give it another thought,

To rebuild my once crumbled fort.

Life is fickle,

Full of problems and hassle,

But give me a chisel,

I'll carve ya'll's name on a crystal....

Thanks for staying with me guys:)

Flashbacks..

2009-04-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hey there...

offline this few days coz got no mood to write...just somehow today it feels that something had came up...so jus scribble it in here..

went to redbox last night with my cousins. well i seldom go out with them so maybe this is jus the right chance to get to know my cousins better. sang a number of songs(but i really can't recall how bad i sounded...haha, screamed till my throat nearly popped out). yeah and practically we're like going for 5 hours non stop:) freaking insane man...

i came across this old song, just few years back.... white flag by DIDO. brings back memories though. if u all know the song then you will know how i feel...

had a crazy time with my cousins this morning...PILLOW FIGHT!!!
we were like practically running around the hotel room ar jumping on and off the bed:)

how long has it been since i had so much fun? i dont know... the feeling just comes when, you know, you're all alone, and you're missing the hugs? yeah...i understand it well now.... but no regrets...i'm well off without it...i know acting tough guy wouldn't help much...i'm just a human...

ha! what am i doing? crapping? haha:) maybe...i dun know

Monday- 23.3.09

2009-03-23T17:54:00.009+08:00

Weather report:VERY VERY HOT!!

Wakakaka... yesterday went bowling with Fish(TH Lee) and Adrian. Walaoeh, today my leg was like so painful cause I'm not that type of a frequent visitor to Penang Bowl, so I think it's quite normal to have some muscle crams eh?:) But it was enjoyable as I had a few strikes and a few spares also-lah... I'm not that teribble in bowling-kay...

Well, what i can say is I love Penang Bowl's lanes...they are so SHINY!!
You can even see the reflection of the pins on the lanes!!

The Balls^^

Adrian playing with his phone while waiting Ah Hoo to finish his turn.
Man, Ah Hoo sure has alot of poses-leh...

What i can say is that guy is DEFINITELY NOT me!

The Scores

Aiseh...i also buay pai ma....got two strikes leh...Fish got no strike:) Adrian was the big winner:)

Haha. that was all about yesterday le...Today ar? nothing special...just went to the University Entarnce Carnival at USM. Soooo many people there, sooo crowded...and soooo many informations gathered there. So it's worth it right? Also got my blood pressure measured:) I'm healthy man! Normal blood pressure, but pity me, I'm underweight. T.T

So just reached home nia-lo. Okay, nothing to write d. That's all for today. JAA!!

Sunday- 21.3.09

2009-03-22T01:56:00.006+08:00

Rainy day no. 3, (and that would be like yesterday since i'm writing this on the 22.3.09^^)

Well well well....it was raining cats and dogs this morning and it was so damn noisy that it woke me up! Oh for Pete's sake! Can't they just let this poor tired boy who was busy playing game whole night to have a good sleep?(well duh!)

So, i'm back on the normal routine(and that would be playing games...yeah DoTA rocks!!....i know i'm so out about this=.=) when my dad asked me to help him out with his work...?

Well, here i was thinking like, well why not? If I help him that would make things easier if I needed his help right? So I went to help him out with the what-u-call-it work...I think i took something which looked like this....

and started with scraping off the fabric...the one above your car?? which was like above your head? Yeah! That's it! Tedious job scraping that layer of sponge=.= !!
It was a Kancil anyways. So that made my life less miserable with the scraping:)

Then, when its done, my dad asked me to wash the cushion cover pula! Walao! U think I know how to do all ar? Sure la:) or I won't proclaim myself as Thomas the Great for nothing^^

Anyways, if you all have a car or sofa or something related with fabric, feel free to contact me. My DAD does it all....at a certain cost la of course:) U think free ar? SEK MONG LEI ARR!!(cantonese as in "Are You Crazy??") But I can personally guarantee the quality for you.

So that's it for now....still unsettled with my UNI application!! SOmebody HELP ME!!

On the brink of getting PhD(Permanent Head Damage)

Friday- 20.3.09

2009-03-20T15:17:00.003+08:00

Rainy day No.2...

ahhaha...(fake laugh==") its another rainy day, and a day which i've got nothing to do as well.
watched the latest 'kamen rider' which is KAMEN RIDER DECADE... quite a nice show. Some might think its childish to watch Kamen Rider, but i'm sure you will likeit if you deal with the plot.
Japanese film makers, especially those with super heroes drama, sure had a great brain to think up these kinds of heroes eh? Although kids just love the fighting with the "WACHAA!!" and "EE YAHH!!"s, and watching these doesn't make me a kiddo right? I'm, i mean we are in a very much different level than those kiddos out there. So don't be shy if you like heroes like Power Rangers and Kamen Riders... I SALUTE YOU MAN!!

Anyways. Try watching DECADE. It has a quite some funny scenes, but the plot up till now is developing quite well, with the main character, Kadoya Tsukasa a.k.a Kamen Rider DECADE, travelling between nine parallel worlds, with each having their own Kamen Rider. Strangely, the part which is quite mind boggling is that the previous Rider, Wataru Kurenai a.k.a Kamen Rider KIVA, is a some sort of a messenger, and his Rider position is replaced by a kiddo!

Well, thats all about it first. If you are interested in watching, just watch. Discuss it here. Just leave a comment for this post or you can chat with me thru the chat box.

Ciao...(as in bye)

Thursday- 19.3.09

2009-03-19T18:17:00.002+08:00

Rainy day....
how should i start today? not feeling really good this few days...something jus happened and im jus not in the mood to talk about it anymore. recently i also resigned from my job, so now i'm officially jobless.......shaking leg at home=.="
almost every day i am in front of my comp... watch drama, read online manga, dota, and just recently started blogging again.
i know i cannot be considered as a blogger... but seems that maybe i might be visiting this page quite often lo... changed my layout also. or maybe jus wanted to switch over to a new page in my life.

i don't know what to say anymore... be right back le...

just hope that somebody will hear me now...