It did again,

The dreaded feeling of my shrinking heart,

Familiar feeling that I can't forget,

I hate it~

Every time she surfaces in the midst of my thoughts,

Every time I wanted to suppress that feeling,

It hurts so much,

Being ignorant of her presence~

Will it be okay,

after a good night's sleep?

Will it be okay,

after I wake up from the dream?

Of me being in love,

With who I am not supposed to be...

Tears welling up with blood rushing all about,

Dilemma felt was never this great,

Trying hard to keep the tears in,

With the heart keep on aching~

I doubt anyone would understand,

For no one would ever care,

How I would feel in this place,

Where any choice would hurt,

Hurt so much,

That I would be crying without tears~