~Love me Hate me~

I'm wondering whether I should accept the offer by Amy 姐 to join BSMM Induk. I feel its a rather tempting offer as I had always love to be on administrative positions. Furthermore, with the conflict I had with my detachment mates (here i mean the seniors), I felt it's hard for me to serve the detachment. But, if I were to accept the offer it means my days will be kinda busy d. Can I really cope with it? Cos' I don't want to jeopardise my studies like I did in the previous semester.

What can I do?

Walao....UKM JAring Lag like hell....kenot online at all...now only got chance to online awhile~~ T.T

New song learned at choir

Ave Verum Corpus by Wolfgang A. Mozart

Nothing much in particular,

Just woke up after Dota-ing till 3am just now~

Crazy eh?

*Listening to Evan Yo- Ji Mo, Hao Le（寂寞，好了）, Brown Eyed Girls-Sign

Had nothing to do,

Lazy to revise,

So, went to friends' blog to kaypo,

But realised that there's so much i didn't understand about them,

I respect them,

For not showing their very emotions to us,

Unlike me,

I can't seem to keep them in my deepest corner of my heart,

unless i want to, that is.

I also realise that behind their smiling faces,

they concealed their despair,

hiding them from others.

Maybe i'm not a very good 'keeper'(in this context, secrets)

But admit i'm a good listener.

Sometimes this is my weakness as well.

Aih...i felt helpless when i saw their notes~

Full of sadness...not being able to help as a friend~

Maybe i should try being more sensitive,(yeah one of my weakness as well, not sensitive enough/or should i say i'm ignorant?)

Or will my help means more trouble for them? (confused~)

It's raining,

With my towel,

drenched with the water from my hair,

As i watched the pelting rain,

As i hear the thunderous roar of Thor's Hammer,

Reminds me of the just passed New Year,

Yet another semester passed,

And a new one coming.

It's raining,

As Thor's Hammer knocks,

So does my speaker rocks,

With my hair still wet,

For the water that was adsorbed,

Was absorbed with my towel.

*just minor ramblings to ease my boredom. happy new year everyone:)

Love|Hate- Hurt

I love you

But I hate you at the sane time

Hate you fo how much I yearn for you

For how you did not even notice.

I love you,

BUt I hate the way you treat me.

All I want is but a smile,

And thats all you ever gave.

I want more,

But you reply me no more

I love you,

But you could never be mine,

For I can't love you

As the time is not right,

Cos' I'm afraid

So afraid that I'll be hurt again.

I love you yet I hate you,

when I see you,

my hearts shivers, my legs go weak; which I don't know WHY?

And it still is now.

How should I tell you, for I'm not even in your mind.

The other him,

I guess he's much better, smarter,and perhaps more charming?

I don't understand this feeling at all,

I hate it but I want it,

When I have it, it hurts me.

Hurts me so much that thousand words can't even explain a single thought.

And most of all,

I'm afraid that i might hurt you for loving you,

I felt like crying, but the tears won't drop,

My chest hurts like its gonna collapse, PLEASE STOP!

I don't want it anymore.

For how much I love you, it hurts me more.

~Love me Hate me~

Love|Hate- Hurt

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